Okay so, the word M I L F (separated it because I think it's prohibited to spell together on this) really bothers me. I think a mother should be a respected women because of all the things she's gone through as a woman, and because she brought life into this world. There are all kinds of mother's out there. Religious mothers, serious mothers you wouldn't even dare call a m i l f, and then they're really open moms. I always thought my mom was an angel. Even now that I know what sex is, I still picture her as a virgin angel because I refuse to see her riding, and sucking d i c k. My step dad's (now) d i c k, and the d i c k of the father of my two younger siblings. My mom is like...religious but is also very open about what's natural. I know my mom does all that freaky stuff, and most likey even more. But I refuse to see her like that because one, it's weird, and two, I'd feel ashamed of her. Even though sex is a natural thing, I would still be ashamed because THAT'S MY MOMMY! You just don't see your mom being freaky everyday, so it's weird! I know this makes no sense and it's taking forever to get to a point here, but, I'm just saying this because I came across a website where the blogger had dozens of pictures of his wife, and other wives with CHILDREN, naked, sucking him off, and riding him and most of them were religious. They had crosses around their necks, and looked as innocent as can be. I was so confused and just shocked! I was only thinking to myself, if this is what these mother's do, what does my mom do? O.O Ohh my god, I scared my brain for life!!! Is it just human nature for a woman you think is a beautiful, religious angel to be a total freak in bed...or is she just fake in the real world, and becomes a total w h o r e at night? Is this how I'm gonna have to be with my husband? O.O (I'm an 18 year old virgin by the way). Like...I consider myself very saint-like when it comes to sex because I've never done anything. I mean, is being a w h o r e in the bedroom what's expected of us women? Even if we're sweet, innocent, and God fearing in real life? It's like living a double life! I'm so confused, I need guidance. PLEASE HELP.