I want to kill myself because i lied in church!? please help?

Question

I'm so stupid, I hate myself. Everyone in my church hates me because i once lied to them all. I apologized immediately but i think they still hate me for it. I feel like when they're nice to me it's fake. I feel like I've ruined everything, they don't talk to me outside of church and they all just stare at me. I once entered the church while everyone was talking and they became quiet as soon as they saw me. I don't want to go back because i feel unwanted, but my family is forcing me to. I've been so depressed because of it and i even caught myself wanting to pray for death. Please help

Answer 1

You need to have a conversation with one of them and find put if they are still mad at you. If they are, you need to communicate with them and figure out what you can do to prove to them that your apology is sincere. One thing i know is that dying is not the answer. You need to make nice with them.

Answer 2

stop being so ridiculous. some people go through hell, with nothing and NO ONE to help them, count your blessings, learn to appreciate what you have and cut the nonsense now.